I worked in a bank in my early 20's. Believe me, when you count bills all day and your fingers turn black from the counting, stacking and wrapping of different denominations of money, that is the experience of money. Dirty paper.
But if it were just dirty paper, it wouldn't take so much of our time and attention.
Money IS dirty paper. And it's also so much more.
Money is a construct, a tool - something that we collectively created and continue to agree to use. It is a testament to human ingenuity and creativity. Money is symbolic. But of what? What does money symbolize?
Money is an expression of nature. A symbol that we created (out of nature herself, I might add) to serve growing economies and populations - for ease of transportation, trade, and use. Collectively, we've mostly forgotten what money represents.
Take a $50.00 dollar bill. This $50.00 bill can transform into anything: chicken, cotton, wood, electricity, water, plants, life force, medicine... you name it, this $50.00 bill can be exchanged for other forms of nature. Conversely, the chicken, the cotton, the electricity, the services of another person, the water, etc... it can all transform into money.
When I close my eyes and I connect with the energy of money, I see nature at play. I see her shapeshifting between forms - I watch the birds, touch the trees, feel the sand between my toes, I see the creative expression of nature in money, just as I see it in us, and in all of nature's magical creations. I see a happy agreement made in good faith between earth and humans long ago. I see the exchange of money for nature and nature for money. I see flow. The sacred nature of money is an expression of the abundance of the earth.
And I see our forgetting.
In our forgetting that WE are also nature - that earth is our natural habitat - we've taken money out of her natural habitat as well. We fail to recognize the true origin of abundance which is nature herself. In our forgetfulness, the pursuit of money as a singular object of desire has become the sad story of the Buddhists' hungry ghosts: endless hunger for more, more, and then even more.
Preta, in Buddhism, "These beings are "ghosts" only in the sense of not being fully alive; not fully capable of living and appreciating what the moment has to offer."
I know that feeling. I know it intimately around money. How painful it is to feel that way - how deeply unsatisfying it feels. To want money to provide something it simply cannot: safety, love, connection, power, control. Mostly for me, when I feel that sense of deep scarcity, it comes down to safety.
This fundamental disconnect between what money really IS and what our society has made money mean is at the heart of our financial crisis at the individual and the global level as well as the health crisis of our earth. As is true with any painful set of circumstances, I experience this as an invitation - the call home to wild nature, mother earth, and the wild nature that lives and breathes within every one of us.
I'm not an expert in government or economics. However, when I tap into the nature of money, I am convinced that the solution must lie in coming into right relationship with ourselves and money AS nature - seeing and knowing ourselves as inter-dependent on the health of the ecosystems around us (or mother earth will go ahead and bring that lesson home for us - she already is). In seeing the beauty and the necessity of every part of the whole. The end of exploitation for the sake of cash accumulation. The healing of our earth and our economies. Knowing at a fundamental level that like nature, we are resilient, when given time to heal. That we have enough of everything we need to support and sustain life - a really good life - for all.
By embracing that money IS an expression of nature and that we are nature as well, it's clear that to maintain the value of money it is necessary to nurture and care for the wild ecosystems of earth and all beings.
A key turning point in my own healing with money happened outside. In the high desert of Colorado, at the foot of the Rocky Mountains. I began to spend time outdoors each day. I began to feel the support of nature, the abundance that surrounds and nourishes life. and I stopped wanting so much. The hungry ghost in me faded into the background. I began caring for my money, being mindful and attentive - just as I was with the wild ecosystem around me. The sense of lack drained from my body psyche.
Personally, I began to understand in a way I haven't since childhood that I AM nature. That we are ALL nature. Recognizing money as yet another vital expression of nature feels profoundly healing, inviting a new depth of truth to the devotion I teach my clients around money.
What could shift for you and your relationship to money, scarcity, and abundance if you spent time in your natural habitat (outdoors) each day? Just noticing the world around you and your connection to earth? What could change if you were to walk outside and acknowledge the origins of money and abundance in the wilds of nature?
May you experience the power of nature in all of its varied and beautiful forms rising up to support you and guide you. May you embrace the true nature of money and heal the wound of scarcity in yourself and may that spill over into the world.
I am dedicated to supporting you as you come into right relationship with money, heal the scarcity wound, and claim peace, power, and freedom. I can't wait to see what you do, sister!
Your time is now. Let's do this.