"Let's go on an adventure" is what I said.

I am traveling. On the road with my girl through the American West for a whole, luxurious month. Marking a year of separation from my husband, with another year to go I say, "Let's go on an adventure, Clara." As if somehow, life itself isn't adventure enough. But I know that sometimes, too often, most of the time, really -- I need to step away from the day to day machinations of my life to appreciate the beauty, healing and vast abundance that life and nature offers.

Saying, "I love the land." is insufficient.

The earth's bones, her scars, the many types of skin, the contours, the rivers, like the blood of our bodies, the lakes and oceans, like the tides of breath that feed me... the earth, and my relationship to it, fills me with awe. I love it. I drive saying thank you, over and over in my hear, as I chat with my girl or we move through the landscapes in silence.

By this time in the trip (just one week in) I am covered in bug bites. Burnt. A bit tired. The after-glow of making love to life, to the earth herself, who opens her arms and welcomes me into her embrace over and over. In the face of what is happening in the world today, I wonder, is it enough? Is it enough to love? To see and appreciate the beauty of the world?

Does the small offering of my attention matter?

In the midst of our collective waking -- our chaotic, violent, present moment -- there is a sadness nipping at my heels during our travels. The sadness brings a gravitas to the incredible awe and joy and hope that I feel as I travel this country with my daughter - a fervent desire to live in a world where all the people at war with each other could sit next to a pristine river in sovereignty, peace and safety. To hear Aspens shiver in the breeze. To see endless seas of soft, golden grass undulate in the wind, or to taste the salt air of the Pacific Ocean with every breath. 

I remember that the recognition of wholeness, beauty and love in all it's forms heals both individually, and collectively. 

Yes, this offering is enough. 

I open my arms to beauty, to awe, to earth, to my daughter, to this life that is mine.

To my daughter's chagrin, I talk to everyone. I look each of them in the eye. The farmer selling the most beautiful flowers. The man who comes to clean the room. The woman who pumps my gas and amazingly, cleans all the bugs from my windshield. I smile. I say thank you and I really mean it. I feel so tender, so broken open by the vast, gorgeous world. This attention to the beauty of nature reminds me again that we humans, we are nature, too: deeply connected to the earth and one another in ways understood, and in ways that we can scarcely imagine.  This feels like an important remembering in this moment of our history.

May there be a remembering that we are all children of the stars, born of the earth's body - sisters and brothers. In the offering of attention, may we be gifted the bone-deep knowing that we are a small part of something so much larger than our minds can possibly comprehend. May we remember that the most important work is to tend to what is right here, an offering of open-hearted presence to life. 

May it be so. 


The Path of a Love Ninja

I attended an intense training last week. 

I affectionately call it, "Ninja Training." The entire week of training was focused on taking personal responsibility for safety through skill building - whether it was crashing a car, being shot at, navigating a building on fire. However, the real take away was being situationally aware.

Pay attention to what's going on around you. 

Who doesn't agree with that, right? Of course we all know that awareness is vital for our safety, our health, our happiness and our appropriate response to what is happening in the world. 

The training - all of it - was so valuable, I will likely use the entire experience as a metaphor for a money course {Money Ninja - get on the first to know list here} and, at the same time, it struck a deep nerve for me. Having experienced the effects of a nervous system on high alert during my young life and my 20's, I noticed myself getting tense and strung up, looking for danger everywhere. 

After all, that is the point they want to drive home. It's their job. 

Danger Everywhere! 

The third day of training, we went outside for some demonstrations. We were outdoors, huddled in a hut behind fire safe glass, watching explosions of various materials - the finale being a car being blown up. 

The explosions guy (his official title, I'm sure) was going on about how terror groups use each type of explosive and the increase of these types of attacks. Again, "Danger Everywhere - BE AWARE." 

What they really meant.

What the instructors really meant wasn't be aware, but be on high alert. As I tuned him out, I looked around. The explosion area was in a huge field of pink flowers. A sweet forest stood at the edge of the field. The sky had cleared and sun was peeking through the clouds. I noticed some birds building nests in the rafters of the explosion hut. 

I was very aware that for all the threat that these amazing instructors were teaching us to be ready for, the lesson was unbalanced - which was evidenced by the very environment they operate in and their unwavering focus on what is threatening, what could go wrong any moment. 

The {Huge} Missing Link

I want to honor the wisdom of the instruction I was given - the skills developed and the enhancement of my capacity to defend and take care of myself and those I love. At the same time, I want to return to what I felt was the missing link. 

Each morning, a beautiful heron passed over the campus right around the time we were getting off the bus. I saw it four of the five days. Out of my group of 40 and the instructors that were in the vicinity, I didn't see anyone else looking up in delight as that majestic creature flew over.  

I saw a fox near the driving track, as well as a deer and a faun. 

Birds were building nests all over the property - despite the explosions, squealing tires, and gunfire. They seemed undeterred. The flowers, trees and grasses were healthy and prolific.

If the point is situational awareness, why would others not notice these clear signs of peace, thriving and abundance? It seems like an oversight that no one pointed out that actually, in the grand scheme of things, things are mostly safe and tend to turn out okay. 

The Wisdom of Radical Awareness. 

Practice presence. Be aware. Train yourself on the skills that will keep you safe if something DOES happen because frankly, it's fun and empowering as hell to know how to use your ulna as a weapon if someone is foolish enough to mess with you. True story.   

Personally, I don't want to be on HIGH ALERT all of the time or be seeking danger with every step. Nor do I believe it's even necessary. I know that when we are actually present and we show up to the magnificence that is life on earth, we are wired to intuit the beauty, connection and delight that life has to offer as well as the threat - in the event it happens. We are amazing like that. 

This is the path of being a love ninja.

You are Invited.

Be a love ninja. Consider your own relationship to awareness. How often are you fully, radically aware of what is happening around you and ready to respond creatively with all of your mad skillz? Note that radical awareness is truly a basic and fundamental aspect of your own Wild Wealth - a rich inner resource that you can tap to change your experience of your life and yourself as the love ninja that you already are. 


A Wealth of Adventure

The World is Magnificent.

A wealth of beauty and adventure are ready and waiting to show you just how amazing you are - from experiences hiding in your own backyard to far-flung, exotic locations. 

When I ask the question, "What do you really want to experience in your lifetime? What are the edges you want to dance at and expand? What would take your breath away?"

More than I ever would have expected, the answer is a blank stare. 

I contend that knowing all the ways you want to devour life - the ways that you intend to shimmy up to your edges and dance them open wide is vital to knowing the depths of your capacity and ability. Vital to understanding just how magnificent the world is and vital to your deep down knowing that your ability to push your own edges is limitless and that really, no matter what, you've got this. 

Adventure and risk connect you to your wealth

Most everything beautiful is risky from honest conversations with our loved ones to learning to rock climb to marketing your newest kick ass program to swimming with sharks. Everything we really want is out beyond the field of fear and doubt that stops us in our tracks. The decision to take the courageous first step is critical - because how you do one thing is how you do everything. It may look as though signing up for singing lessons has nothing to do with creating a thriving business and bank account, but that's just not true. When you push your edges in one arena, you naturally expand your capacity for being uncomfortable (and kicking ass) in other areas. 

Speaking of getting cozy with being uncomfortable, when you decide to say yes to adventure, to play at your edges, it hones your ability to hold fear lightly instead of letting it stop you, helps you get comfortable with risk and failure (which is part of doing new things, always) and most important, fosters bravery and your ability to risk in “real” life. 

Adventure and risk shows you the truth about your Wild WealthYou are a resourceful, courageous and strong woman. You know more than you ever thought you knew. You can do more than you ever imagined and have fun doing it. You can be uncomfortable and scared and still take the leap and experience joy. Your capacity to be filled with life-force is unlimited. 

Dancing at your edges wakes you up. Fully alive, energized and engaged. All in. Fierce. Frankly, there is nothing more magnetic than a woman awake to her own greatness and unafraid to use it, to push at those edges, to fall down and get up. 

You are invited

What adventures are waiting for you to say yes? What would take your breath away? You are invited to shimmy up to your edges and say yes to the adventure - to get to know your incredible capacity. To tap into the wealth of your own energy, courage and capacity.

Today, name twenty activities you would do for play, for fun - things that feel risky to you (note that I said risky, not dangerous. I'm not advocating doing something that will be dangerous, k?) What activities elicit a quickened heartbeat and a rush of excitement?

Where would you go? What would you try? What would you choose?

Don't wait.

Make time for epic adventure to get to know your most courageous self and notice how that spills over and ripples into the way you run your business, engage with your life and tend your bank account.

You are going to amaze yourself.