For many years, my yoga practice felt like running through the mud.
After that first class, where I had the felt sense of being in my body, it became, to put it mildly, a slog. Every time I practiced, I would find myself angry for no reason, or crying, or experiencing a barrage of dark thoughts that would plunge me into depressive states for days, if not weeks. It would have been far easier to quit and write yoga out of my life.
I knew what was happening was necessary.
I didn't understand why it was so painful or what was happening, but I knew it was important. I knew on a visceral level that in order to experience more of the bliss I experienced in that first yoga class, I would have to make it through the hard stuff.
I was devoted to the practice and process of yoga.
Devotion is defined as love, loyalty, or enthusiasm for a person, activity, or cause. Even though it was painful, and I didn't understand it, I couldn't get enough of yoga. I devoured books, practiced diligently, and looked at my work and my life through the lens of yoga.
Eventually, the pain diminished and my practice became a joy. When I roll my mat out today, I swear I can feel everything unnecessary falling away and it's just me and the divine meeting on the mat.
Being in business for yourself can feel like running through the mud.
You start with an inspiration that is so incredible -- you are on fire! You have that initial felt sense that what you want to do will not only change your life, but the lives of all the people you work with. But what sometimes happens is, you start working on creating this business and, you hit the wall(s):
- The initial inspiration becomes obscured in your own self-doubt (Who would hire me?? What, exactly, do I have to offer again??).
- You start looking into what will be required to actually do this thing and realize you don't really know how to move forward with systems, planning, or marketing.
- The 5,000 awesome ideas you have every day paralyze you from taking action on even one of those ideas.
And on, and on. There is work and learning involved in following our bliss and saving the world.
Your business needs your devotion.
The learning and work will not end -- but, if you are devoted to doing what needs to be done and learning what you need to learn, it will get easier. You will find a sense of flow and ease as you grow into being a business owner.
Trust the process.
You are the only one who knows if this entrepreneurial gig is the right thing for you. If it is, keep showing up (even when it feels impossible). Get the help you need to market yourself, to learn the how's of running your business, and to focus your energy on the inspiration that will help you serve your peeps and have fun while you do it.
Devotion will get you through the muddy waters to blissful clarity in your business.
Namasté to you, business yoginis!